Friday, February 3, 2012
Still struggling.....
After over a year on Weight Watchers the sad thing is I still have food issues. Don't get me wrong, I have tackled a lot of them. One thing I am struggling with now is going through stages of not eating much at all, then I decide that's not good and I start eating better (more). I know I'm probably screwing up my metabolism now but I just have this feeling like I'm never going to get to goal. I just sometimes wish that we didn't have to eat. It would be so much easier that way. But food is everywhere. Everywhere you look, every time you turn on the TV, open a magazine, or socialize. But we as human beings have no choice we have to eat. Learning how to eat is the key. I know this but sometimes it's so hard. My weight has literally not moved in months. Yes it has gone down, but it has also gone up too. Up and down, down and up. I have maintained. I am obsessed with the scale again and it's playing with my head. The past week it has NOT changed at all. Every day I step on and every day it has said the same thing. And I'm going to be honest here.....it sucks! I don't even want to go to my WW meeting tomorrow because I know I will be up or the same. Today I was in such a bad mood all day and it started as soon as I stepped on the scale. So what am I going to do about this? Do I want to quit? No. I do have a plan. I have a Doctor appointment on February 21st for a complete physical. I am going to discuss my weight with her and see what she says. If she agrees I will get her to sign a note to raise my goal weight at WW. Then I can get my lifetime and finally quit paying! Of course I will still work hard to try to lose and ultimately get down to 160. I would secretly love to be in the 150's. Maybe someday.
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OH MY GOD...get out of my head, will ya. LOL! I could have written this, Kim. No lie. This is what I've been going through (hence my absence). I actually stopped eating because I got so friggin' sick and tired of the rigmarole of tracking choosing the right thing and then turning around and seeing an ad somewhere for pizza or doughnuts or anything that is well over 1200 calories per serving. UGH! It is THE most frustrating to meet your plateau and feel tired of the act of not quitting, but it's so important.
All you can do is keep trying and trying because the alternative (gaining weight) is actually a lot worse than all the effort and rigmarole of trying to be healthy and at a good weight.
Hang in there, darlin'! Hang in there! It's all we can do to prevent ourselves from going nuts over this.
*hugs*
Oh Kim. You are in such hard zone. The last bit is excruciating! You are right--doing the not eating then eating thing is likely not helping as your body doesn't know what to do. You know how to do this though--you know the things that work, you know the things that don't. Maybe its time to get back to the basics--clear the house of anything that is a "red light food"--like we do at the start, track consistently, drink your water, eat simply with lots of veg. The plan of talking to your doctor is a good one too. You will get there! Keep on doing what has worked. I'm so proud of you Kim.
Would it be possible for you to put the scale away for a while and also to stop dieting and start practicing maintenance? Maybe taking the stress and focus off of yourself (and that number on the scale) might help you to lose that final bit of weight...and in any case, ease your mind a bit. I know what it's like, staying the same on the scale, and it's not fun. Frustrating to the max.
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