Looking after my heart

Update on my Dad.  He is still in ICU, he is still on a ventilator.  He had a heart attack along with some other issues.  We are hopeful that he can come out of this but it's an uphill battle.  He is 82 years old.  I am not ready to say goodbye.  I have a very close family and we have rallied together in this.  It warms my heart, it really does.  My parents have been married almost 59 years (in April it will be 59).  They are still very much in love.  She misses him at night, it's sad.  I really hope he can come home to her again.  Sigh....

I have been at the hospital every day since he went in on January 8 th.  Tonight I am not going.  My 2 sisters and I have decided we have to try to take turns so we don't burn out.  My Mom is there every day, all day.  She says she doesn't want to be anywhere else.  She usually gets a ride in the morning, then stays all day (grandchildren or one of us goes up throughout the day), then someone comes up around supper time to stay with her until she can say goodnight to Dad then take her home.  It has been a very long 12 days.

In the past 12 days I have done very little exercise.  There hasn't been time, and there hasn't been motivation.  I am sad and just can't find the umph I need to get going.  Yesterday I made myself go to my Body Pump class (weight class) and it really felt good.  Tonight I did my "couch to 5 K" on the treadmill, and it felt good.  I decided that I have to do this.  I have to make the time to look after MY HEART, and MY BODY.  I know my Dad would want that.  Tomorrow is weigh in day.  I hope I have lost some lbs.  I am so close now and I just want to get to goal.  My husband and I are going to Arizona and Las Vegas on March 2nd.  My plan is to be on Maintenance by then.

my family at Thanksgiving 2011