Monday, April 4, 2011

Emotional highs and lows!

I have had a week that felt like an emotional roller coaster.  I won't go into too much detail but work stress and life stress has been there this past week.  I can say though that I didn't run to food which I am feeling really good about.  I feel in control of that part of my life for once.  I don't even know why I'm not running to food because in the past I would have.  For some reason I have my goals in my mind and I am thinking clearly as I put food into my mouth these days.  Does that make sense?  I have to share my weigh in day (Friday, April 1) story with you all (if anyone is out there!).  My sister, Nancy received her Lifetime award at Weight Watcher's on Friday.  She and I go to different meetings, but on the same day.  I attend an at work meeting, and she attends one at a church downtown.  It was the end of our at work session so I had to go to mine and sign up so that meant that I couldn't go and share in her celebration.  I was so sad about that.  I told her that I wasn't able to attend with her.  Then on Thursday I started thinking, what if I gave my cheque to my friend and got her to register me?  So that's what I did!  I bought a bouquet of flowers on my way to work and then went to her meeting at lunchtime.  She wasn't there when I got there so I weighed in and I lost 2.2 lbs for a total of 15.2!  I sat down near the middle of the meeting and ate my lunch quietly.  I heard her come in, talking to everyone and I heard them discussing Lifetime membership with her.  She came and sat right behind me!  I was so worried that she would see me but she didn't!  When the meeting started and they called her up to the front I presented her with flowers.  It was a great surprise and we both cried.  I am so proud of her.  She gave me 3 bags of clothes yesterday.  She has some great things in sizes 16, 14 and 12.  Most of the 16's fit (some not quite), but it's going to be great to have a some things to wear along the way.  It was like going shopping without having to pay!!  WhoooHooo!


Nancy said...

The emotional eating is a real trap isn't it. I spent a lot of my life in that cycle. I remember buying bags of cookies and eating nearly the whole package dunked in milk--preferably 2%. But fortunately I haven't been as much of an emotional eater in the past few years. My problem is more mindless, boredom eating especially in the evenings. I am really proud of you for getting through a difficult week without running to the false god of food. That particular idol is a liar--tells us we'll feel soooo much better if we just eat, but in fact we feel worse. Not only are we full, uncomfortable and bloated but we often feel so much shame and guilt as well.
Much better to try to turn to other things and do just as you did--think about what goes into your mouth. Ask the questions, "what am I doing?" "do I really want this?" "how am I going to feel after eating this? Better or not so good?"
Its a life journey but you are walking it.
The friday weight story was wonderful! I felt so special and I was so delighted to see you there. It totally made my day. Plus the flowers are beautiful!

Kim A said...

Awe you're welcome! It was your moment to shine and you sure did!! Inspiring to me and I'm sure everyone else in your meeting. I'll post a pic if you'll let me!