Addicted to the scale

I am a scale addict. There I said it. When I had my foot surgery on Jan 12 my husband took our scale and put it somewhere. He moved it so that I had a clear path to the bathroom. The funny thing is, I haven't asked him where it is and I don't know where it is. Here's the deal, I'm dying to weigh myself!! I am trying so hard to stay away from it though because in the past it has really sabotaged my weight loss efforts. I have those days where I would get on the scale and if it was high, I would feel defeated and eat. Other times if it was a loss I would feel invincible and eat (because I felt I could eat something as a reward, or because I had "room" to cheat and still show a loss for the week). None of it makes sense, I know that but my scale addicted self could always make excuses to eat. That's the bottom line. So, here I sit day 4 of Weight Watchers and I want to weigh myself. I won't though, because I don't know where the scale is. I don't think I will ask either :-)

Weight Watchers Day 2 and foot saga continues....

Update on me! January 12th I underwent another surgery on my tendon in my ankle. Specifically my peroneus brevis. The Dr. said the surgery went good. When he got in there the brevis longitudinal split was healing nicely but there was a flap of damaged tenon above it. He said that is what was causing me the pain after the first surgery. I am a bit confused as to where that came from but I guess if it heals nicely and I can get back to some sort of physical exercise I will be happy! Even to be able to function normally without pain and swelling will be awesome. I look forward to that. It has been rough, as with the last surgery. I was in a fair bit of pain, not so much now but still lots of swelling and the incision looks nasty. Not infected nasty, but sore and because he actually cut right over the last one this aint going away anytime soon. Oh well, that is the least of my worries! I am off work for 6 weeks which really sucks since I don't have enough sick time to cover it. I have to take all my bank time and vacation time and 2.5 days without pay. At least I get my 3 weeks vacation time again at the beginning of April so I will still be able to take time off this summer! I am dealing with boredom now. Watching TV is not doing it for me and I can't read all day so I'm finding the days long. I hope once it starts to feel better I can do some scrapbooking. Right now I can't sit up for that long. On to my next news - I joined Weight Watchers on Friday!! There is an at work program that will go for 12 weeks. It will be great once I'm back at work to have the meetings right there (well in the building next door at least). The program is very easy to follow and I'm loving the points plus! Free fruits are awesome! I'm disgusted at my starting weight but I'm really trying to focus on the smaller goals, 5% at first, then 10% and so on. I am so motivated by my sister Nancy! She has done so great. Almost at goal, something I've never been able to do. This time will be different, I can feel it in my bones!

Monday morning weigh in

I am excited to say my Monday morning weigh in was good! 222.5 lbs. So that's a 6.5 lb loss for the week. I am happy about that but I must say it was all about the food choices. I only got to the gym 2 times. I caught a bad cold that has me down for the count. I stayed home from work today. I am feeling like crap. I had some blood tests done last week and this morning had a call from my Dr's office. The nurse said my cholesterol was high and my Dr wants me to go on a low fat diet and start to exercise. What a coincidence!! So I guess I knew that it was time to do something about this body of mine. I have a complete physical with my Dr. on Oct 14. I hope to have dropped a few more pounds by then.

Sick with a cold :-(

So here I sit, sick with a cold. I have given myself a few days off from the gym. I can't breathe and feel like crap! I had to work today. I am disappointed that I can't exercise. Tomorrow I'll see how I feel and maybe go for a light work out. On a brighter note, eating has been right on track! Eating lots of veggies and trying hard to get my water in too. I'm going to make Monday my weigh in day so hopefully I'll see a loss then. Family supper tomorrow, I'm hoping I can stay on track there.

Awesome salads!

Day 4 of taking my lunch to work. I have been bringing the most awesome salads! Just tossed salads but I have been putting lots of great veggies in there. Things like sugar snap peas and red grapes. Sooo good. The other thing I found was yogurt by Silhouette called Satisfaction. It's really good and the best part is it has 8 grams of protein per serving and only 80 calories!! I am amazed at how filling it is. I went to the gym last night and had the orientation for the 20 minute weight machine workout. It was good. I ended up not having much time after to do much of a work out. I didn't go today but plan to go straight from work tomorrow. I know that once I get home it's waaaayyyy harder to go out after. Today I had another MRI of my ankle. The ortho Dr. thinks it may not be healing quite like it should. Hopefully the MRI will show that the tendons are still intact and it's just taking time to heal. I have to admit my eating was really good today. I know that is where I need to make some changes. Baby steps.

September 21, 2010

Well here it is September and I really haven't lost any weight. An update on the ankle. I saw the Dr. and he thinks it may not be healing as fast as it should. So I am going for another MRI on Thursday the 23rd of September. Hopefully it will show that the tendons are still repaired and just inflamed. Actually it hasn't been feeling too bad lately. I am hoping it's finally healing. I joined the new Good Life Fitness gym yesterday! I feel really good about that decision. I did the bike and elliptical trainer and my ankle feels alright. I am getting ready to go tonight too. Tomorrow I am going at 6:00 for a orientation session for the quick 20 minute circuit training. I realize that going to the gym isn't the only thing that will help me to lose weight. I know that I have to change my eating habits too. My plan is to just try to make small changes so that it isn't such a drastic change in my life. I have been eating awesome salads for lunch and I love it! Lunches are an issue with me. I quite often eat things I have grabbed on the run, or at a fast food restaurant. I think making sure I pack my lunch every day will help me a lot. So, here I go again.

August 4, 2010

I have been in such a funk lately. I am in a funk about my weight. I weighed myself today and it wasn't good news. 229 lbs. The most I have EVER weighed. Today has to be the day that I stop eating like a pig. I want to start writing in this blog more too. The other really bad thing is that my ankle is not better. It's still swollen, sore and frankly it's not much better than before my surgery. I made an appointment to see Dr. Rees. I'm really not sure what can be done about it but I guess I'll find out. September 9th.